Saturday, April 30, 2011

1984 by George Orwell (completed)

Yea!  I finished it!  I can’t say it was the most enjoyable read, but it was interesting.  The whole political/socioeconomic structure was intriguing, frightening and maybe more pertinent today than it was when it was written.

Warning to readers - The two most painful parts to get through: the Appendix on "Newspeak" and The Book (the Goldstein political manifesto within the book).

My husband told me that, according to conspiracy theorists, George Orwell (a.k.a. Eric Blair) was writing from experience and actual knowledge he had of the plans for civilization.  I didn’t do any research into that, I was just happy to get through it and move onto something more fun.

Next up: Water For Elephants  (I’m giving myself a water read after 1984.)


Friday, April 15, 2011

1984 (in process)

After finishing the Great Gatsby (in just a few days), I began 1984, by George Orwell.  On the third page there is an asterisk (*) that leads one to the 11 page appendix that explains the principals of "Newspeak".  I think I spent two weeks wielding my way through these very dry, unenjoyable, yet ultimately necessary pages.  I have two problems: a) I am a painfully slow reader, b) I have limited time and innumerable distractions, so if I'm not thoroughly engrossed in a book, I just won't pick it up.  Alas, I have fought my way through the monotony of description and found my way back to the actual story, and after a sick day at home with the kiddos I am on page 47 and feeling quite justified in my pride over this fact.

So far--spoiler alert!--it's dark.  Like soul-deep kinda dark.  It makes me want to hear my kids laugh, and watch cartoons, and talk to my mom.

Well, I guess that's all I've got for you now.  See you again in 198 pages of tiny, soul-sucking Times New Roman type.

Friday, March 25, 2011

The Great Gatsby

I started my journey into reading “something of substance” with The Great Gatsby by F. Scott Fitzgerald.  The Great American Novel.  One of the Best Books Ever Written.  Now, I’m not refuting these oft-used descriptions of Fitzgerald’s work, I just don’t think I get it.

My overwhelming sense of this book is desolation, desolation of the spirit, desolation of the landscape, all masked by the pretty façades that come with money.  The “valley of ashes” pervades everything.  I imagine the mansions and lawns of East and West Egg as shiny candy shells, easily crackable, painted over the top of ash.  It also represents the characters’ emptiness.  There are a number of people in this story (Daisy, Gatsby, Tom, Jordan, Myrtle) who have accumulated very few redeeming qualities between them.  Daisy is weak and vapid.  Her only redeeming moment is when she mows down the woman who is sleeping with her husband.  But she immediately loses any gained respect by going back to her unfaithful husband.  Tom is an unfaithful, ego-driven narcissist.  And Gatsby is so singularly-focused that he is delusional…and kind of pathetic.  He has no grasp on reality whatsoever.  This leaves us with Nick, our narrator.  Nick is just a normal guy who, when held up against the lack-of-character of the rest of the cast, comes across as an incredible man.  But really…he’s just a guy.

My favorite character in the entire book is Michaelis.  (Let me guess, you’ve read the book and have no idea who this is?)  Michaelis is the neighbor of George and Myrtle Wilson.  He also witnessed the accident.  It does not appear that he knows the Wilsons particularly well, but after Myrtle’s death, he stays with George through the first night.  He could have offered his condolences and gone home, easily slipping out amongst the chaos, but he stayed.  This is what a good person looks like.

I found it interesting that in re-reading The Great Gatsby (I read it 12 years ago in high school) the two things I remember most clearly from my first reading are really two fairly insignificant details: the green light on the end of Daisy Buchanan’s dock and the eyes of Doctor T.J. Eckleburg.  I’m sure these two elements carried the great weight of symbolism and were talked about in class.  I did not remember the plot save three points: Gatsby loved Daisy, Gatsby had a big house, and Gatsby threw big parties.

So, as I said to begin with, I just don’t think I get it.  This is the quintessential American novel of the “Jazz Age” (a term coined by Fitzgerald, I think).  It gives a brilliant snapshot of life within a particular time and place.  What confuses me is how other people perceive that snapshot.  They expound on the glamour of Gatsby’s parties and on Gatsby’s love for Daisy with romance and nostalgia.  My perception of the photograph is just sadness, emptiness…a green light over a black, empty expanse of water.

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

The Reading List (Top 61)

Here are the top 61 books on my list.  These books were each on at least 3 of the 8 lists I went through.  The top 3 books (1984, The Grapes of Wrath, and The Great Gatsby) were each on 7 of the 8 lists.


TitleAuthorYearLists out of 8
1984George Orwell19487
The Grapes of WrathJohn Steinbeck19397
The Great GatsbyF. Scott Fitzgerald19257
Heart of DarknessJoseph Conrad 6
Lord of the FliesWilliam Golding19556
On the RoadJack Kerouac19576
The Catcher in the RyeJ.D. Salinger19516
The Sound and the FuryWilliam Faulkner19296
The Sun Also RisesErnest Hemingway19266
A Clockwork OrangeAnthony Burgess19635
A Farewell to ArmsErnest Hemingway 5
Animal FarmGeorge Orwell19465
BelovedToni Morrison19875
Brave New WorldAldous Huxley 5
Catch-22Joseph Heller19615
Gone with the WindMargaret Mitchell19365
Invisible ManRalph Ellison19525
LolitaVladimir Nabokov19555
One Flew Over the Cockoo's NestKen Kesey19625
Slaughterhouse FiveKurt Vonnegut19695
To Kill a MockingbirdHarper Lee19605
To the LighthouseVirginia Woolf19275
A Passage to IndiaE.M. Forster19244
A Portrait of the Artist as a Young ManJames Joyce 4
An American TragedyTheodore Dreiser19254
As I Lay DyingWilliam Faulkner 4
Atlas ShruggedAyn Rand 4
Brideshead RevisitedEvelyn Waugh19464
Farenheit 451Ray Bradbury 4
Light in AugustWilliam Faulkner19324
The Call of the WildJack London 4
The FountainheadAyn Rand 4
The Lord of the RingsJ.R.R. Tolkien19544
Tropic of CancerHenry Miller19344
UlyssesJames Joyce 4
A Confederacy of DuncesJohn Kennedy Toole 3
A House for Mr. BiswasV.S. Naipaul19623
Absalom, Absalom!William Faulkner 3
All the King's MenRobert Penn Warren19463
Blood MeridianCormac McCarthy19863
Death Comes for the ArchbishopWilla Cather19273
Go Tell it on the MountainJames Baldwin19533
I, ClaudiusRobert Graves19343
Jane EyreCharlotte Bronte 3
Midnight's ChildrenSalman Rushdie19813
Naked LunchWilliam Borroughs19593
Native SonRichard Wright19403
Of Human BondageW. Somerset Maugham 3
Of Mice and MenJohn Steinbeck 3
SiddhartaHermann Hesse 3
Sons and LoversD.H. Lawrence 3
The Adventures of Huckleberry FinnMark Twain 3
The Count of Monte CristoAlexandre Dumas 3
The French Lieutenant's WomanJohn Fowles19693
The Handmaid's TaleMargaret Atwood 3
The Heart is a Lonely HunterCarson McCullers19403
The Hitchhiker's Guide to the GalaxyDouglas Adams 3
The MoviegoerWalker Percy19613
The Sheltering SkyPaul Bowles19493
Under the VolcanoMalcolm Lowry19473
Wide Sargasso SeaJean Rhys19663

Trying to find culture (and the brain I used to have)

Let's begin.  I'm Megan.  I'm 30 (at least for another month), married, and a stay-at-home mom of two girls (Tenley, 4 and Seri, 2).

I'm interested in a lot of things, but have realized lately that I live my life in such a way as to maximize the time I get to sit down, either reading or watching television.  This is not something I'm proud of of which I'm proud (especially since I read fluff and watch nothing of much substance).

I have also had flashes of feeling that my life has become very small: I get up, go to the gym, go home, maybe bring Ten to dance or swimming, get the girls down, go to bed, wake up and repeat.  My life is not much more complicated than the instructions on a shampoo bottle.

I am not whining.  I love my life.  I love my girls, and my husband.  I love being a mom and wife.  It's only myself whom I'm kind of appathetic towards.  I think a loss of self is something that a lot of moms go through, and more than that, I believe it is a situation of my own making.  (I am lazy by nature, so here's to the good fight!)  I am trying to change it!

So, here is the beginning of my plan, and the purpose for this blog: Books & Movies.

Movies (or Films, depending on your level of pretension)
I am going to work my way through the AFI Top 100 Films list (both the 1998 original, and the 10th anniversary list).  I may add a few of my own picks as well. 
AFI Top 100 Films

Books
I plan to read my way down a list of my own compilation.  I drew from a number of lists, compiled them, then sorted the list by the number of lists each book made it on (whew).  This was a less than perfectly scientific process: some of the lists I pulled from were just novels, some included non-fiction, some had date restrictions, some didn't, but I feel I ended up with a pretty comprehensive place to start.  I will link the lists from which I pulled, and if I figure out how to upload a spreadsheet, I'll put my own list up.
TIME's All Time 100 Novels
The Best 100 Lists
Modern Library - Board and Readers picks for Best 100 Novels
Modern Library - Radcliffe College's Rival List
Rory's Book Club List (Rory is a fictional character from the Gilmore Girls television series.)
Amazon's Must Read List
Just Some Guy's Opinion - Ten Classics

So, that about does it for now I guess.